I have slowly been implementing positive changes within my lifestyle. I am not just talking about eating better, but I am trying to worry less and have a better attitude about life in general. And it’s working, slowly but surely. Fear has been holding me back for all of this time. And not to mention the feeling of dread when it comes to changing has been overwhelming. But, if you change, bit by bit, little by little, it snowballs into something positive. You cannot change any kind of lifestyle drastically, but bit by bit which in the end will go a long way. It takes approximately 21 to 40 days to develop new habits. You practice changing for the better for that long, it will in the end become second hand nature. I took the plunge and joined Weight Watchers (thought I have been on Sparkpeople, but was not inspired enough), and I vow to stick with it. No amount of excuses will keep me straying away from my goals. I think for so long I subconsciously chose to stay overweight to “get back” at society and its standards. But I am realizing that I was hurting myself, regardless of how I feel about society. I did not feel good, I DO not feel good being overweight. And the fact of the matter is, when I do my book signings hopefully in the winter, I will want to look nice and presentable, for ME, not for society. Speaking of my book.. some delays have occurred.
Unfortunately, since self publishing is not an easy task, you have to watch EVERYTHING!! And I mean EVERYTHING about it. They started to print off some copies and I then noticed (I didn’t notice it before, ugh) that there were a number of typos!! So I had to beg them to stop the printers (some may be printed off already and there is not a whole lot I can do about that), and to get it proofread one more time, and THEN to triple check it.. and then submit it! I am not going to be able to release the book in September now. It will likely be the end of October. Later September would be okay, if Mercury was direct! Which it won’t be. Whenever Mercury is in retrograde, the last thing you should do is release a book!!! So the end of October it will be. I will keep you updated if there are any changes. But I am feeling this will be an exciting fall and winter 
